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Let's Having Fun Then

Okay. i've been here for many times. to be honest, yang kali ini lebih mudah sebenernya tapi lebih membingungkan. setelah hampir setahun gk ngerasain dan gk mau ngerasain. it happened and "pop', it appeared very clear, in front of me.
meskipun, vision mengenai ini (objek) sudah lama terlintas tiba-tiba waktu itu. and all i could do at that time , my mind said"nope! that's impossible". It couldn't be that person. Masak sih, dia? Tapi anehnya, ciri-cirinya emang banyak nyangkut di dia. someone who came out from that booth, wear that brown skirt with bare foot. even not very clear to see her face then i didnt take any serious on it. meanwhile my heart said, it was her. and what best i can do just tried to denial, denial and denial.
and lately, "confusing" is familiar for me.
what is this? i very very very noticed this feeling but i felt, it's just not at the right time. but i dunno, i stuck in the middle.
well, it sucks!!! my mind just got trapped with this weird feelings. and i always try to weak my mind up. logically think that it's impossible for us to have word "together".
and learning from the past, it's useless to forget the things. since more harder to forget more easier she burn up my life.

and wise man said, "just enjoy the day. it might be, you need to learn something more important from her. something that you need to get through this time life and becoming more mature, mature and mature. and underlined this, life is a journey, not destination. at the end, we all together will meet The One, The Almighty One. So, listen, it's good to have many questions but sometimes, you dont have to get all the answers. just enjoy your feelings and trust me, you both, will have laugh after all this."

That love, which made you more becoming God's creature. Keep it in right track by listening your heart and be free.

"Hey you, what we have to learn then? i just cant wait anymore. Let's having fun with this. Let's pass this with our joy, laugh, cry and be live! I Love You."

Bogor, 10-10-10

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